...so life

so some times life, it just seems to slip right up to your face to say hi... my hart told me it wants to love you. my body calls for your love. but i my self feel you should have to work for it. and i am sorry it hurts you to know that. but to be the person you need and want me to be, this is the way are life has to be. i so care about you i do, but i care for minny, and not all care for me. i cant take the pain aging and aging. i truly cant see how iv stayed alive for this long... and maybe it was to be with you but maybe not........plzz just opine up to me let me see the truth...