fuck it all

ok so evry time me and greg try and see echothre its hell evry thang gos rong, 1 frist his car day right be for are first date. 2. i crash my car. 3. he has to go on a family crappy road trip. 4. he got hire but had to bage for a ride home. 5. his cars still not fixed! 3 weeks latre! like what the fuck if my car was not fixed in 3 weeks heads would be rolling! and next weekend im try to go to chico agine what could go rong this time, who knows. but becuse of his car we did missed are one month togeth! im so fucking pissed off.!!~


p.s it seems i only blog whin im really up set i think thats kinda odd dont you?

some times, and place

im at school, its hella raining. i have to drive my shity little car that sucks ass. oh so fun. no nothing. my laptop cored seems to have died. no greg till wensday.im sliping down, down in to the wet ground..aghhhh so need a life sick of this place it neeeds to be 4 so i can go to yoga, i want to go now but the frist class is not till 4 aghhhhhh

happy days

im so happy to be happy and at the same time it kinda makes me sad cus im no longre emo, so i dont have as much to talk about. well im good gregs good , just waned to let you know,love ginger bear

trusday night

trysday night around 9pm, i crashed my car in to a tree. im ok pritty much ok, just really bruzed, its hard to move and stuff. i was stuck in my car for like 30 mints. it was raining and i was just geting off a brige and hit ice. i was as well tring to pass a truck, and spun out and some how, thank god got the car to trun back wards, and hit the tree with the back og my car. if i had not i probly would be died. my bf rushed up and has not left my side since, i LOVE it. he frecked out more then me and about the same as my mom! it was so frecking crazy. well thanks for leting my tell you all!



~~~ginger bear~~~~

i din't know i loved you so much

i dint know how much i need you, how much i wanted you, till i had you. i had to let you go, evan if for a shoet time, a part of me feels as tho its dieing.

hahah i feel as if im wasting my life, no life, no job, not doning much in school. cant see were im going. but ill be happy to go there as long as you hold me hand!

Chase the Morning

go out in to this world my child, see the ways the ppl live, and the way they die.

in the past 3 days iv gone from the lows that were oh so saddly low, to the high, this is so its bittre sweet!

i know how i feel, and i know all the words that want to just roll out and wash over you. only time will tell if all i see, and all i feel is real. i pray, and i wish that if its a dream that i wont wake up, and if i do wake up that ill see you there, looking back at me.

you say so much in just the way you look at me, i can see it some times, your thinking of something you feel you need or want to say. but im tell you this now, theres nothing you could do to make me want you iny more then i all ready do.

its so crazy that i feel this way, i of all ppl. the girl who would dream the devil would take me in my sleep, and the girl who wished that her life would care about her, seems to finly have found that one thang iv bine looking for, you, love,life, some just for me!

~ginger bear~

But I didn't know I'd love you so muchI didn't know I'd love you so muchI didn't know I'd love you so muchbut I do.